Turn it Down and Speak Up

Hey beautiful Ladies,

I hope you all have been enjoying this wonderful weather…spring is definitely in the air.  Unfortunately, with the spring weather comes spring cleaning.  I have been doing a little spring cleaning myself.  It has not been in the traditional sense though.  Some of you may be thinking that you cleaned out old clothes, and threw away items that were cluttering your space, or started a fast to cleanse your body.  How many of you have engaged in a spring cleaning of your emotions?  Well, that is what I was forced to do this week.

I have not had the best relationship with my father for the latter years of my life.  I have dealt with disappointment and mistrust issues with him for over 19 years.  However, this week, I was faced with an opportunity to face some of those emotions and begin healing.  There was an urge to tell him how much he hurt me in my youth and how it effected me as an adult.  Can I tell you how terrified I was to call him?  I even dialed the number several times only to hang up the phone before it rang.  Then it happened!  I turned down the voice that said “he is not going to care”.  I turned down the voice that said “he will think you want money”. I turned down the voice that said ”he is going to disappoint you again”.  I turned down the voice of hurt and allowed my voice of freedom to speak up! I allowed myself to not only feel the hurts, but give a voice to those hurts so that I could be free to let them go.

How many times have you held on to pains and disappointments thinking that you are protecting yourself, when in fact you are only creating a wall that blocks out everything you desire and want?  You see, spring cleaning your emotions removes the weeds and crabgrass  that can kill your blooms.  Only you can pull up those weeds! Only you can speak up and say “I will no longer allow past hurts to kill my future endeavors”.

Today is a new season in your life, so why take old baggage with you.  I encourage you to SPEAK UP!  Open your mouth and let go of all the things people said or did that may have caused you distress.  You can write it in a letter, a poem, or a song.  You can even call the person and say, “I Love you, but you hurt me”.  There is no better time than the present.

God has great plans for your life!  He wants you to win! He is your best coach and biggest cheerleader.  However he can’t help you get in the game if you are sitting on the bench thinking about the last hard hit you got.  Speak up!  Say, “God, that last hit hurt, but I know you love me and want me to succeed. Help me heal”.

Speak up! Let go and let God! Be free!

Love from a weed free garden,

Dr. Sunne